30 Days of Me - Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

My song library is so ecclectic, this one is VERY hard to answer... compounded by the fact that musically tastes change almost as fast as the second hand sweeps around the clock face.

When I'm happy, I have a tendancy to listen to more upbeat stuff.  The current song stuck in my head is the original song written by Kurt Schneider and performed by his friend Sam Tsui called "Don't Want an Ending".  You can listen to it (along with a great professionally shot music video they did) on YouTube.

When sad, I have a tendancy to head to Billy Joel's "And So It Goes".

When bored, I tend to go on random sprees searching iTunes and YouTube for new stuff to listen to.

When hyped up, I usually am playing/dancing to something... or at the very least singing very loudly to whatever I'm playing.

When mad... well I don't usually get mad... or at least I don't listen to music when I get mad.

And So It Goes

I've been in kind of a depressing mood for most of the night... and just as I'm getting ready to finally crawl into bed the one song that pretty much says it all for me right now occurs on my iTunes playlist.  Oddly, these were also posted on this same blog over 3 years ago (See February, 2007) and yet still today I return to that same feeling.  "My silence is my self defense" has a different meaning for me than was originally intended but it's all the more poignant for my life.  My silence defends me from being ridiculed, outcast, and disowned.  I sometimes feel I've said too much... that I may be inadvertently outed myself to someone who wouldn't be as accepting.  I just wish I could embrace the later verses.  I don't think I could share my room (or closet in my case) with anyone right now... nor could I give my heart to someone.    And so it goes... and so it goes... and you, the readers, are the only ones... who know.


In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along


I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense


And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose


But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break


And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows


So I would choose to be with you
As if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break


And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

30 Days of Truth - Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Tough days... that's a laugh.  I can't honestly say I've had many tough days in my life thus far.  There have been some days where it all seems to much or days that have been very depressing.  And I don't really have a single artist that I turn to for comfort in those times.  I get through stress with video games.  Nothing gets the anger out likea round of a first-person shooter. :)


I've had this post saved in my drafts since 10am this morning... because I couldn't think of a single artist or band that got me through tough times.  But after listening to some videos on YouTube... I can finally put down a few.  As my life has changed, so has my passion for certain artists.  So rather than 1 letter, I'm writing three.


Read (and listen to) more after the jump....

I wish...

...I could let someone into my room. But I fear there are too many locks on the door... I'm not even sure there is a door anymore... And So It Goes... (thanks, Billy Joel)

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I’ve held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It’s just as well for all I’ve seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That’s if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows