Here's a funny one. This fax just arrived at work from a state agency in California. I cracked up at the name. "California State Board of Equalization" What in the hell do THEY do? I didn't get a chance to read the fax before someone else grabbed it for their department. Now I'm curious...

Maybe tonite I'll put together the links page finally....along with more regular reads. I might rename that though. Since I've been hitting everyone irregularly. :( Sorry gang. But life is hectic right now.

Here's an interesting thought. In my regular reads today I stumbled upon a post on ClosetBoy's site in which several people are trying to come up with a better word than "gay". Looks like the whole things started at Christopher Street. Since then ClosetBoy and Kerr have both written things on their sites.

In most of the sites I have found, several comments think that even if a new word is developed, it will eventually be adopted by the un-enlightened to mean virtually the same things and stereotypes as the current definitions and words used by society today.

I'm gay. I'm sure that if you've been here before this post, you would know that anyway. :) But actually saying, or typing for that matter, that "I'm gay" is not something I do often. To be honest, I'm firmly entrenched in my closet still. This site actually is the one site I am truely myself on. I don't publicly say "check out my site" either. So if you've happened upon this, good for you. Not many people visit it. That's probably evident by the number of comments left here, or lack there of.

But one thing I do like about this site, is that it is public. Someone could see it. I could, if I wanted to, direct people to it and say, "Yes, that is MY site." But that's just not something I'm quite ready for yet.

But I'm getting off-topic here...

So, back to "I'm gay." (Boys do it for me, girls don't. That kinda thing.) I've never really liked that word. I'm not totally against it, even though society is. Other words get to me worse. Queer is too radical and strange or deviant sounding. Homosexual is too clinical. So I am forced to conclude that maybe we do need a better word. Maybe with a new phrase, I might be more inclined to say "I'm enlightened" or "I'm special." (God that sounds like I belong in some sort of therapy!) However, even with a new word, I think it's only a matter of time, before someone, somewhere, someway, finds it derogatory.

Yeah! Tax Relief arrives this week sometime...at least that's what the letter says. We'll just see if the government can keep up with all the checks their mailing.

Of course the one bright light in my days this week have been the times I'm driving around town with Justin. Justin just rocks. There's no way else to put it. I love every second I spent driving around with him. Why couldn't the Ranger be this much fun? Oh yeah, I remember. It sucked. :) No if only Justin would suck, just not in a bad way :) , I'd marry him!

This week is not starting off well. I'm so glad it's a pay-week though. At least that's something to look forward to tomorrow. But I have the distinct feeling life is about to stack the deck again strongly in it's own favor. Everything is going so-so. I won't say well cause a few things have happened (like my checking account being overdrawn) which have got me down and confused since I have no clue where the money went. Plus I have SOOOO much to do and SOOO little time to get things down...and most of the stuff I do need to do is personal stuff like getting my credit reports straigtened out. Oh...I probably haven't told you about that one. Oh well...that's a story for another entry. For now, suffice it to say I have FAR too much to do and no time to do it in. :(

Gawd, I'm sooo tired. I don't get it. It's only like 11pm...slightly before even...and I'm dead tired! I have been staying up to until 1 or 2 am the last week with no problems. Whats up with weekends, anyway? I never get anything done I want to get done, and now it seems a side effect of the weekend is I'm more tired than when it started on Friday! What's up with THAT?!?!